insides

Home’s a perception I never want to see

Lose yourself somewhere else

Maybe this comfort is all I’ll ever need

But I’m still trying to find it.

 

Climb into these sheet and

We’ll sail the seven seas

Until the day breaks us.

[race for the sunset]

Take your busy hands and fade away

Out of sight, out of mind

You’re gone.

The air is better when you’re almost there

You breathe the air of lovers

Wave goodbye to the misery of the lost

And join the battle already fought.

TIme won’t let you leave

And time won’t let you go

I’d love you forever till the end of the earth

But you already know.

when all else fails;

You are on your own

And I am here alone

The world stops to reason when you go away

Till the sea brings you back home

-

My darkness is your light

And nothing coincides

With the tides they are changing and you’re not in sight

To bring me back inside

-

These nights are empty/ But this bed was made for two/ You’d understand me/ When I say please help me too

-

When the night has passed

And the reckless days are gone

The winds they are crying and the sea is forlorn

And their faced old and worn

-

Won’t you come on down

And let me ease that frown

The world will cradle and sing us to sleep

And watch us come undone

f e a r s

Hello, I’ve been missing in action for way too long. Here’s a rough demo of an original for an apology.

 

Search for your salvation tonight
When the walls come down it’s hard to stay alive
Swallow your pride and take the fall
When the tide comes in you won’t feel a thing at all

[CHORUS]
I can’t let myself go this time
Letting you think that you’ll have me forever
You held my hand and didn’t think twice
Mistakes are written all over your face

So spend your time a little wiser
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
But I got lost in my mind
In the spaces that you won’t be able to find

[CHORUS]

When you have the chance to run away
Take it and go there’s no need for you to stay
Stoic faces meet troubled minds
Making it impossible for us to try

[CHORUS]

Keep your eyes closed and don’t you dare look back
All the salt you get is your heart’s regret
Chasing fantasies from a long time ago
Faith is hard to keep when he doesn’t know

[CHORUS]

r e v e a l

Bleeding from the wounds of feelings

Tonight the sirens tell what you cannot speak

Nothing but the sound of screaming

To keep from the quiet, to sleep with the weak

-

Spinning in the confines of your head

Down the spine of restless commotion

And the lovers look upon their dying love

Running pictures of the famous, never knowing no notion

Of peace

Please repeat

The subtle words that hang from tongues of arrogance and conceit

You’ll go

Pride and all

These wild nights I’ll watch with dark thoughts as you sell your soul

BEING.

IF EVERYONE UNDERSTOOD THE PHRASE “I DON’T KNOW” AND LEARNED TO BACK THE FUCK AWAY THEN MAYBE THE WORLD WOULDN’T BE SUCH A PRESSURE FUCKING COOKER. MAYBE WE WOULDN’T BE AS  FUCKED UP AS WE ARE NOW BECAUSE WE WEREN’T PUSHED INTO SOMETHING WE WEREN’T COMFORTABLE DOING, SOMETHING THAT WE COULD NEVER FIT INTO BECAUSE WE NEVER SAW IT LIKE OTHERS DID. MAYBE THEY SHOULD HAVE JUST LET US BE, LET US SPILL OUR OWN BLOOD SO WE COULD APPRECIATE LIVING, AND RESPECT THE EFFORT IT TAKES FOR SUCCESS IN OUR OWN MEANS.

I’M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING EXPECTED TO BE SOMETHING ELSE WHEN I’M STILL UNSURE AND LOST WHILE EVERYONE ELSE SEEMS TO HAVE THEIR WHOLE FUCKING LIVES PLANNED OUT FOR THEM- OR BE EXPECTED TO PLAN THEIR WHOLE LIVES OUT BY THE TIME THEY ARE NEARING COLLEGE, SO THEY KNOW WHAT SCHOLARSHIPS TO TAKE, WHAT COURSE TO APPLY TO, HOW HIGH THEIR AVERAGE SCORES HAVE TO BE, HOW MUCH TIME AND EFFORT AND THEY’D HAVE TO PUT IN FOR A NUMBER THAT WILL SEEMINGLY ALTER THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. WE ARE BOUND BY A SYSTEM THAT DOESN’T EXCEPT DIFFERENCE; IT CAN’T TOLERATE ANYTHING EXCEPT NORMALITY AND CONFORMITY BECAUSE THEY NEVER THOUGHT OF FULLY EDUCATING SOCIETY, THEY ONLY THOUGHT OF SOCIETY CATERING FOR THEIR FUTURE NEEDS, STUNTING THE REST OF THE BOUNDLESS POTENTIAL WE HAVE AS INDIVIDUALS, AS EACH AND EVERY ONE OF OURSELVES.

I CAN’T BE THAT, MAYBE, FOR ONCE, I’D LIKE TO TAKE OFF SOCIETY’S “SAFETY” HARNESS AND FREE FALL INTO MY DREAMS BECAUSE IF I’M SURE OF THEM, AND IF THEY ARE MY DREAMS, AND NOT YOURS OR ANYBODY ELSE’S, THEN I WILL MAKE IT MINE. NO MATTER WHAT.

SO I SAY FUCK THE SYSTEM. AND FUCK EVERYTHING THAT FOLLOWS BEHIND BLINDLY, BECAUSE WE CAN EITHER BELIEVE IN THE DOUBTS PUT ON US, AND ACCEPT THE LIMITATIONS THAT WILL PULL US FURTHER AWAY FROM OUR HAPPINESS, OR WE CAN RUN AWAY TO THE FREEDOM THAT IS OUR BIRTH RIGHT. OUR LIVES, OUR OWN TERMS.

blood ///////////

For all the blades that they’ve taken away,

There will aways be one more.

And for all the scars that I’ve left,

I’d only want to create more.

Hurting, is what I do best. And I will always want to;

Feel hurt. Be hurt. And if I can’t make sense of it all,

I will hurt myself.

I think I like this. I want this,

In the sickest way possible.

After all I am sick, aren’t I.

And everyone can only say so much to try and stop me.